Do I need glasses or something?

There are times when I get hit with reality. Really hard. After the beating, I'll usually say, "Wow, I've been blind." I said that today to a young girl in our youth group. I received another beating with her reply. Golly, it's amazing I don't have bruises. She said, "No, you're not, you're just not seeing correctly..." The statement was so simple, so easy... so true. A thirteen-year-old is therefore smarter than I for the day.

There are other times when I feel like I've made a difference, particularly in the lives of the kids I lead in youth group. I know I can't control the choices people make, but these kids aren't making God real in their lives. Most of them aren't chasing after Him... and it hurts. I've made it personal because I want to see these children of God grow and become amazing and ruthless vessels for Christ, but they aren't taking the things we talk about seriously. God is in a different book, maybe the one right next to them on the shelf... but their plots don't line up. It's like sticking Pride and Prejudice next to Frankenstein and expecting them to mesh.

I wish things didn't seem so hopeless tonight. I do have hope, though. I hope in Jesus. I know He has the power to save and flip people's lives upside down and inside out. I've experienced it. So. It all comes down to trust... do I trust Him to infiltrate the lives of the kids I've come to care so deeply for? Do I trust Him enough to take over me so that I'm just an overflow of Him and His truth?

Do I trust Him enough in my life? That's the question of 2010.