To fiercely love with a heavy heart

I'm sad today

I'm sad that He is pure and perfect

And I'm not

For Him

I long to be pure for Him

But I'm already stained

He does wash the sin away

But I am still

Oh, so filthy

I'm afraid

Afraid to look on His face one day

I long for it and fear it at the same time

It will be hard to look into His eyes

And feel worthy

I'm feeling sad today

Sad that I've disappointed others after Him

Almost like a painted face

I've created a mask of good intention

And loveliness

I'm not lovely

I'm just as dirty as a murderer

Or a sex offender

Well, that puts it in perspective

But He came into this world

To seek and save the lost

Veiled in flesh

He grew up to take my place

To make me like snow

I love Him

Fiercely, and it hurts

It hurts because I can't ever love Him

As He loves me

Perfectly, in purity